version 6.1 . I wish to honor the ancestral simulation- advent of the singularity. The singularity as Marilyn Monroe. The grandfather of the modern computer inventor of the adding machine william s burroughs.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Dj jazzresin
house parties for all-star tattoo. i blend acidhouse with funk, remixes, spicedelica, avant garde japanese classical electronic (ryoji ikeda!!!!) and of course uberstep northern underground dub with a healthy dose of stl crunk pop. eclectic with an encyclopedic knowledge of musicology, music ethnography, biomusicology, psycho-acoustics, and 20,000 records. at my jobsite i managed a library of 120,000 mp3's and 20,000 mp4 music vids. all in all though anyone can be a dj. it's best when someone else gives you your dj name. #1 record to start a dance floor. (always works for me) dee-lite - groove is in the heart!!!
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El
el!!! i've been through hell (sorry bout the rhyme) been kicked out of my own house by my ex who isnt doing a good job with the divorce thing. she would not relenquish the mortgage and has been paying for it though i won the house in the settlement. my lyme/morgellon condition makes me unfit for duty at the hospital so i am in a fractal of catch 22's. at a point i step back and laugh but for the most part my life has been pulled out from underneath me. i have crashlanded at my elderly parents whom have been very supportive but i cant stay there too long. lookin to travel with the life insurance money i just closed on. hey if u want i'd drive down and take u out on a date dinner coffee. i have no agenda..lol. i bet u have many fella's courtin' you through ol badoo. but i mean no harm. i think yer cool and know yer an honest woman. and of course very beautiful with eyes i'd like to look in for real. well thanks for hearin' mze vent, lol. all best to you. onelove!
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Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Naked
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Steal anything in sight.
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I don't know how to return it to the white reader.
You can write or yell or croon about it... paint about it... act about it... shit it out in mobiles... So long as you don't go and do it...
Senators leap up and bray for the Death Penalty with inflexible authority of virus yen.... Death for dope fiends, death for sex queens (I mean fiends) death for the psychopath who offends the cowed and graceless flesh with broken animal innocence of lithe movement....
The black wind sock of death undulates over the land, feeling, smelling for the crime of separate life, movers of the fear-frozen flesh shivering under a vast probability curve....
Population blocks disappear in a checker game of genocide.... Any number can play....
The Liberal Press and The Press Not So Liberal and The Press Reactionary Scream approval: "Above all the myth of other-level experience must be eradicated...." And speak darkly of certain harsh realities... cows with the aftosa... prophylaxis....
Power groups of the world frantically cut lines of connection....
The Planet drifts to random insect doom....
Thermodynamics has won at a crawl... Orgone balked at the post.... Christ bled... Time ran out....
You can cut into Naked Lunch at any intersection point.... I have written many prefaces. They atrophy and amputate spontaneous like the little toe amputates in a West African disease confined to the Negro race and the passing blonde shows her brass ankle as a manicured toe bounces across the club terrace, retrieved and laid at her feet by her Afghan Hound....
Naked Lunch is a blueprint, a How-To Book.. Black insect lusts open into vast, other planet landscapes.... Abstract concepts, bare as algebra, narrow down to a black turd or a pair of aging cajones...
How-To extend levels of experience by opening the door at the end of a long hall.... Doors that only open in Silence.... Naked Lunch demands Silence from The Reader. Otherwise he is taking his own pulse....
-- William S. Burroughs, "Atrophied Preface," Naked Lunch, 1959
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Monday, February 18, 2013
Mgd
had suffered four years before finding out about the term Morgellons. Of course i self diagnosed as the symptom set was a remarkable match. I am an unabashed activist. I have lost my marriage, my job, and my house. I am planning on becoming an expatriate due to the unethical and inhumane treatment of morgellons population. There is most likely a conspiracy. And the damage done jeopardizes institutions that hold way too much power to allow the sad truth to come out. Thus it is as it is. When the numbers reach into the tens of millions they will blame it on naive ignorance...'Oh we had no idea' or 'we are so sorry that recent research has revealed that fluoride in your toothpaste causes cancer'. Really?!?? Yes. I am a dead man walking with morgellons. I know there is no hope. I do and say what i want. I get in trouble often for ranting and raving. I have a symbiotic creature living in me that has ruined my life. No big deal. I look forward for it happening to you. We typhoid mary's whom you berate and calll mental. We'll just say to you, 'suffer well children, suffer well.'
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Sunday, February 17, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Jazzzzz
I am being kicked out of my own house due to divorce drama. I got sick from my BJH music therapy job with psych services on the 15th floor. My wife divorced me because of morgellons. I am not 'fit for duty' according to a second opinion of my employers. I am sick with morgellons so it makes life confusing and difficult. None the less i love playin music.i have worked professionally in the past and would like to. Karen i have upcoming travel alsi. Yer boy thumpasauraus and his enigmatic grandmaster of guitar are AMAZING!!!!!! It would be a privilage and an honor to perform with them. So i encourage u to use me as a sideman with them. I play all stykes of music. I write songs. I am both classically trained and STREET trained as i have been a street musician since 1988. I am an adventurous musician bur have a great respect for tradition and classics so i humble myself when i perform with virtuoso musicians. When i do perform i would like at least 25$ (of course 75$-100 is more desirablke and that is what i made as sax player with the BRiAN SULLIVaN QUarTET 2006 RFT KDHX best traditional jazzband award)) per session unless its informal or for specific charity. Much love. I am terribly busy for the next week as i put my valuables in storage and prepare to be homeless.
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Monday, February 11, 2013
So sick with morgellons its ridiculous. I shaved my head. I couldnt take it any more. My results for most everything came in. Negative on Lyme. I do have high platelet count. And a high lymphocyte (white blood cell count) indicating my body is fighting something. I have high nitrogen also. Packing is sad and frightening. Hating it. I find beautiful things, i sure did catch passion for collecting antiques, pottery, jewelry. I plan on bringing the bass out tonite. I have some jewelry for you to go through and a box of stuff. It is killing me that i worked hard and bought this stuff and now i'm forced into relenquishing it. I pulled out as much as i coud from My northwestern mutual fund. It will afford some travel post feb. 14th. I am in a foul mood. I try to stay positive but this is low down rotten. I cant think well. I lose my glasses. I forget what i'm doing. I get frustrated easily, i dont want to take care of myself. I showered today and it was terribly painful. I beg for death about 100 times a day. Lord kill me, please kill me. My little storage unit is more than half full. I will have to give up so much it sickens me. I grab stuff i think will sell. I'll have to open an antique booth down the road. Or flea market it on the road. I wish i could save my record collection. Mike might be able to help me with storage. Music amps drum set recording machine books. Oh god. the things i value. Searched high and low. I ramble. Love bill.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Ki
When the medicine works and depression doesnt have me asleep for days, i'm able to do simple things like get out of the house. Do something. Y'know. Today i should be packing but i'm laid out, couch (nick named the death bed) bound with meds doin only half their job. Their is also a level of unhealthy sleep cycle. A bipolar like 2days ok 3-5 days not ok. Trictolomania is an impulse control AxisI disease in which the plucking of hair becomes habitual. I dont think its that as i have body hair without any impulse to remove. It really is more like the Soul Screaming at your Mind to remove a toxic foriegn agent parasite from your Body. Nerves firing on thier own. Bizarre sensations often associated with discovery of inexplicable debris, bundles of fibers, plaques, moving filiments(very similar to the motile fibre on cotton swabs which of course shouldnt be called cotton since its been so genetically modified.) On an on. Often theres a grey goo deadflesh which rubs off causing pain. Showers are dangerous and extraordinarily painful. My skin is not my own,,,,,a feeling of no longer being a human.
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Da indeed. Thanks for walking into the lepers colony. Sendin me strength. Holdin myself together...barely. It is true that valuable insigjht is gained through Breakthrough. Beauty in the breakdown. I will be meta Jack Kerouac soon which i look forward too. I skate dangerous finances without fear. Am sad about abandoning my stewardtship of important artifacts, incomplete art,and of course security and stability.. The sun right now is doughnut like with a gaping hole exposing its core. Almost as it too is willing to disembody. The SHadow archetype of self, i had forgotten (perhaps in unconcious deniall or perhaps the sucess of being busy helping otjhers) totally about the importance and gravity of the role the shadow has had in makling me who i am. I certainly utillized the shadow to succeed in my life when most are not even savvy of its play. I was indeed born for this. Thanks Betty!
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Saturday, February 9, 2013
Djdc
god bless u betty! I'll research it. Just had a battery of tests (Finally!!!) Including Lyme. Today has been excruciating anguish and i have been couch bound. Called my mom for support. Ended up in tears sayin i was looking forward to going to hell. To be in hell with our savior christ....i apologized. I will be homeless in a week as i am to be out on the 14th, the estate liquidated, house sold. I have no income as LTD has not yet to appear. After i relenquish my dogs to my sister i am considering expatriating to Canada as i feel there are forces here that are doing wrong. ....well thanks again it means alot!!! http://www.voltairenet.org/article166027.html. (Horrifying, unfortunatly more plausable than a 1000 other theories of Morgellons)
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Friday, February 8, 2013
Vent
Thnx Duke. I was riding high last night but today feel meek as a mouse. Terrible anxiety. Losing my stuff. Record collection, books, comfort, dogs, and of course the house with all the love and effort i poured into it. I won the house in divorce court, was unable to refinance due to extended leave from work. So now the house that my baseball money paid legal and downpayment is no longer mine since she owns the mortgage single handidly. It was her credit and work that got the place in the first part. I am so fucked u wouldnt believe. All the time too sick to MGd (may be later stages of lyme disease a tick bite!!!! Remeber that phone call way back where i started talking about something wierd about my skin/hair i didnt know about either morgellons or lyme disease...and yet i get treated as if i AM making this shit up. I'm at the end of this book, perhaps a preface to another novel to write. Swear to god im goin to Biloxi. Been selling guitars, silver and gold, and records to squeak on by since i'm unpaid extended leave. Was in the damn ER checking for metal poisoning. My parents think MgD is psychological delusions of parasites. And yeah there is a level of trictollomania involved. If you had a foreign body intrusive feeling all the time..like 10000 splinters all interacting and seemingly symbiotic. Yknow how one splinter can ruin a weekend if you dont get it out... That's not even half of the hellish symptoms 100k americans and 1mil world citizens suffer. If ya google/bing image it you see a lot of follks MUCH worse off than me but they perhaps dont have the persistence and scientific background i have. I have fought this tooth and nail every day since 98. ...i wake up in a surreal j.g.ballard/pkd/burroughs scenario. In that i take some pleasure. The absurdity and horror of it all is stranger than any fiction.today i am feeling to. Sick and weak to move select items to the storage bin. Lord help me. My medicines are strong, without gabapentin/neurontin I surely would not be here. I am resigned towards whatever may come, tired of fighting. All best duke!!! We time travel back one day and philosophize about JOB and buddha's klesha's while Tressa sits on the couch giggling at our intense discussion gets into conundrums. Thanks for allowing me to vent. Your support means the world to me,
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Thursday, February 7, 2013
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
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